Raw in Toronto

friday fiddles

2012-01-21T11:56:00.003-05:00

toronto raw vegan festival

2012-01-20T16:03:00.002-05:00

http://torontorawveganfestival.com/

Toronto Raw/Vegan Festival
918 Bathurst Street(at Bloor Street) ,
Toronto, OntarioSaturday,
June 9, 2012 10:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m.
Sunday, June 10, 2012 10:00 a.m. to 4:00 p.m.

Workshops after 4:30 p.m.

The Toronto Raw/Vegan Festival offers all you need for healthy, cruelty-free, eco-friendly green living. You don`t have to be vegan to attend! Come and see why people are increasingly adopting a raw/vegan lifestyle. The festival features …

FREE Admission

First 1000 guests receive a free Permacharts Laminated Reference Guide courtesy of the Helping Hands Program – a $7.95 value

We are featuring Tim Van Orden, the Running Raw Man
All day raw/vegan food demo’s and sampling by Toronto’s leading raw/vegan chefs
All day speakers on health and food topics of interest
Delicious food vendors
Ethical clothing
Cruelty-free cosmetics, toiletries and healthcare products
Live entertainment ATM onsite

General inquires: info@torontorawveganfestival.com
Event and organizing questions: patricia@torontorawveganfestival.com
Administration & marketing: cathy@torontorawveganfestival.com
Website related inquires: jane@torontorawveganfestival.com

burgers and chocolate chunks ,, yum

2012-01-19T23:35:00.000-05:00

finally got around to making these burgers i first made in 2008, also my brownies i am now calling chocolate chunks, since they are like chunks of delish thick rich chocorocks lol

Making a whole mess of raw

2012-01-19T23:30:00.002-05:00

Birthday challenge success

2012-01-19T23:29:00.002-05:00

saturday update

2012-01-19T23:27:00.003-05:00

new years goal video

2012-01-07T14:24:00.000-05:00

back to raw

2012-01-05T11:58:00.000-05:00

well this is my third day eating raw. i woke up with a wicked headache. when i got out of bed however i noticed i could spring right up. no slow movements, no back and leg and arm issues, it is so refreshing , i remember this feeling of lightness the last 500 times i started raw. I am also getting charly horses all over my body. my back when i was trying to get off the bus. each moring or anytime i try to yawn or stretch, my feet if i curl my toes.. it is crazy. i read on line about potassium. but i had this before and i ate loads of bananas then. i also had a potassium test done and it was fine. with me i think it is magnesium and or calcium. i saw so many posts saying magnesium and cramps. so i am going to start those two things. i am seeing that i am forgetting what to do automatically, like sauce for zuchini spaghetti. and waht i use to put in my nut milk, like cinnamon ect...

well, off to a brand new life,,,again...lets see how this rolls.

wheatberry ventures

2011-07-31T01:47:00.000-04:00

zucchini pasta

2011-07-28T14:41:00.003-04:00

this was good stuff, i am going to warm it up next time, just let it sit in the dehydrator or warm water for a while. the sauce was avocado, tomatoes, spices, almond pulp and raisins on top.

raw salsa

2011-07-20T15:39:00.001-04:00

breakfast and stuff

2011-07-20T15:37:00.000-04:00

july 14th update

2011-07-20T15:36:00.000-04:00

sprouting black eye peas

2011-07-20T15:32:00.000-04:00

they never did get soft. next i will do quinoa.

pancakes and chocolate mousse

2011-07-20T15:30:00.000-04:00

tofu smoothie

2011-07-20T15:28:00.001-04:00

raw mock tuna

2011-05-04T23:33:00.002-04:00

made this tonight for supper. was good, i also put 1/2 jalapeno in it. yum

here is the recipe found at:

http://www.raw-food-diet-inspiration.com/mocktunasalad.html

Raw Mock Tuna Recipe
Dancin' Toon-A (mock tuna)

* 1 cup soaked Almonds (24 hours min, I love to peel them by pushing them in between my fingers and pinching them the skin with come off, you do not need to do this step)
* 1/2 cup soaked (around 5 hours) and Sunflower Seeds (if you like you can dry them on a plate for an afternoon).
* 1 lemon juiced
* 1 Tablespoon sweetener like Agave Nectar, dates, etc
* 2 garlic cloves, crushed
* 1/4 cup parsley, chopped finely
* 1/2 bell pepper (yellow or red), chopped finely
* 3 stalks celery, chopped in tiny pieces
* 4 green onions, chopped finely
* 1/2 apple, chopped finely
* 1/2 lemon-dill cucumbers, chopped finely (SEE RECIPE BELOW)
* 1/8 tea white or black pepper
* 1/4-1/2 teaspoon dulse
* 1/2 tea dill dried or 1/8 cup finely chopped fresh dill

In a food processor add 1/2 the nuts and seeds and blend well with dulse, lemon juice, garlic, sweetener and seasonings. Add the rest of the nuts and seeds to the mix and pulse chop leave a bit of chunks put in a bowl and mix in the veggies. Taste and adjust to your taste remembering Sweet, Sour, Spicy, Salty, Bitter.
Put in a lettuce leaf then add a tomato slice, lemon-dill cucumber, sprouts, etc and ENJOY! I love these sandwiches!! This is a fun raw vegan recipe to take to an office luncheon, wait until they have enjoyed the Toona then tell them its made with nuts.

2011-02-20T14:43:00.000-05:00

sunday, one week completed

2011-02-13T15:34:00.001-05:00

saturday stuff, before the juicing..click here to go to support group

2011-02-05T14:17:00.000-05:00

want to join me? click here

2011-02-05T09:15:00.004-05:00

raw journey update

2011-02-05T09:12:00.001-05:00

carrot cake and walnut nightmare

2010-11-28T00:19:00.000-05:00

pancakes and crackers

2010-11-20T08:19:00.002-05:00

made a bunch of pancakes and crackers and also mushrooms. busy night.
my mother asked me last year how much the dehydrator costs to run. On the excalibur website it says 25 cents a day? something like that. have you guys noticed any hike in your bills when using it every day?

here are pics of my last batch

burgers

2010-11-17T23:05:00.003-05:00

just made some nice burgers. we will see tomorrow how they turn out.

sunflower seeds
flax seeds
celery
red peppers
mushrooms
cilantro
onions
salt

and of course diann's original sauce..caus...ME NOT CARE! lol

update on me

2010-11-14T13:09:00.000-05:00

juicey dumpsters

2010-10-30T11:43:00.002-04:00

yea, so i pretty much am a sugar addict, the best juices for me are orange with pineapple and cucumber.Pure oranges, is just too tart it seems. I think i am going to start dumpster diving again for veggies and fruit. this is getting expensive.

my kale chips

2010-09-18T18:59:00.003-04:00

kale chips

2010-09-11T23:00:00.002-04:00

FINALLY. I made them. I will post pics later tomorrow.

basically i put almonds, red peppers, salt, lemon juice and some spices together in the vitmaix and made a sauce, then rubbed it all over the kale.

I have 3 hours to go before i can eat them.. they taste pretty good chewy too..:)

foods you don't have to buy organic

2010-07-18T13:09:00.001-04:00

foods you don't have to buy organic

http://www.drweil.com/drw/u/ART02984/Foods-You-Dont-Have-to-Buy-Organic.html

I am pleased to announce my new partnership with the Environmental Working Group (EWG), a nonprofit organization that advocates for policies that protect global and individual health. I am honored to help EWG spread the word about one of its most valuable pieces of research - a Shoppers' Guide to Pesticides in Produce. The 2010 version is based on the results of nearly 96,000 pesticide tests performed on produce and collected by federal agencies between 2000 and 2008.

Nearly all of the data used took into account how people typically wash and prepare produce - for example, apples were washed and bananas peeled before testing. Of the 50 different fruit and vegetable categories tested, the following "Clean 15" foods had the lowest pesticide load, and consequently are the safest conventionally grown crops to consume from the standpoint of pesticide contamination:

* Onions
* Avocados
* Sweet Corn
* Pineapples
* Mangoes
* Sweet Peas
* Asparagus
* Kiwi
* Cabbage
* Eggplant
* Cantaloupe (Domestic)
* Watermelon
* Grapefruit
* Sweet Potatoes
* Honeydew Melon

2010-07-06T15:12:00.000-04:00

end of a juice era

2010-06-29T22:48:00.002-04:00

day 91

2010-06-28T13:25:00.000-04:00

latest juices

2010-06-16T19:53:00.003-04:00

yesterday i made.

pineapple
bok choy
cucumber
ginger
carrot
it was great, i put too much ginger in though lol

I also bought some prepared juices. They are made by bolthouse.

i got vanilla chia
carrot
greens

they are very yummy.
i need a break from juicing with the machine.

i am still keeping a juice journal. how are you all doing?

day 62 of juice feast

2010-05-29T22:26:00.000-04:00

day 51 of my 92 day juice feast

2010-05-19T19:44:00.000-04:00

may 3rd, new shoes

2010-05-03T06:51:00.001-04:00

april 25th

2010-04-25T20:42:00.002-04:00

tuesday april 20th day 22

2010-04-20T20:51:00.002-04:00

So i had a juice today made of

beets
lettuce
oranges
cucumber
ginger

It was great

I also did my exercises.

3 reps of 10 sit ups
3 reps of 10 push ups
3 reps of 30 leg squeezes with the thigh master
3 reps of 20 arm curls backwards
3 reps of arm lifts sideways

tomorrow i will jog around the block and do my weightloss yoga.

day 20 of my 92 day juice feast. Old demons are haunting me

2010-04-18T22:27:00.006-04:00

I don't know what is going on, the closer i get to 200 pounds, the more i am freaking out and sabotaging everything. There must be something waiting for me around the corner that is caring the hell out of my unconscious mind and i am trying the best to squash it back in. I binged and purged again today, this time it was actually outside. I went down the street in back of a church and purged. Is that not the grosses thing you have ever heard? I mean. how pathetic can you get? I don't know what the hell is going on, but i am determined to let it come out. I try to stop it but other parts of me want it to release, so i can be free. well free must be one crazy bitch. I thought free was happy and joyful and love? Do you always have to hurt before you feel love?

eating disorders

2010-04-12T19:35:00.000-04:00

day 11

2010-04-12T19:34:00.000-04:00

making juice

2010-04-12T19:33:00.001-04:00

Monday.. day 8

2010-04-05T13:43:00.003-04:00

Soooooo. I think i will be trying clear soup broth this week. for a change. Then more teas next week. then back to green juices..i find chewing on gum helpful also.

day six progress

2010-04-03T19:51:00.002-04:00

day six

2010-04-03T19:49:00.003-04:00

making juice with my nieces.

second juice feast day 3

2010-04-01T17:58:00.001-04:00

day one

2010-03-30T10:58:00.004-04:00

So my first day was a success. i did not eat anything. but i dreamt that i ate some stuff. I was so worried that i would mess up, i even dreamt up my screw up hahahaha.
i am going to have 1 green juice today and all the rest is going to be fruit juice. and maybe a ginger tea. I gotta start growing my kombucha tea again. How did you all do?

sunday pre juicing

2010-03-28T22:32:00.000-04:00

update -saturday video

2010-03-28T08:56:00.007-04:00

for those on facebook, i made a private group for us all to talk and support one another

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=104393256263915

Getting ready for juice feast

2010-03-26T14:40:00.007-04:00

So how am i getting my body ready? Binging of course. Like when will this madness end? i am suppose to be excited and preparing for a nice spiritual journey. and what i am doing is mourning food like a funeral. I am stuffing anything and everything in my face. I had pizza, McDonald's, Junk food from the corner mom and pops. grilled cheese sandwiches, nachos and cheese, cookies, ice cream... and i can't lie, i did think about just purging it all. still thinking of it really.

Anyway, i know this is my eating disorder having a tantrum and crying thinking it is going to die. so i will let it play out and journal my stuff. what is it about food
that has such a hold on me?

juice feasting second round

2010-03-25T23:56:00.006-04:00

well, i am starting another juice feast on Monday. I have two people who are doing it with me and one online that will do it also for 30 days. If you want to start with me, please watch my you tube videos and add comments to them so that all the others that want to join can feel like they belong to a supportive group. I was looking through my old diary when i juiced last year and around day 30 i was so bably constipated that i called telehealth and was told to go to the hospital if i dd not have a movement in one day. But i did have one, it took 6 suppositories and i was 3.6 pounds lighter after. can you believe that, i am so scared this is gong to happen again so i looked on the global juice feast site and they have a supplement that maes you go to the bathroom 2 to 3 times a day.. i am def getting that!

Long time

2010-03-13T11:38:00.003-05:00

well, i am still alive everyone. Hope you are all doing well on your raw journeys.
This morning I had some Pancakes and bananas with agave syrup. I spent a couple of hours yesterday dehydrating pancakes and burgers. Both recipes i got from Johnnyraw appleseed. a user on youtube. she is great.. The family was over and had pizza and chips around the house. i successfully avoided the pizza. BIG YIPPIE!!! and made a salad with tuna.
I did have some chips though and a piece of fudge. I am totally ok with that.

I have been contemplating buying a juicer before a vitamix simply because i can use my blender for most things. I have been craving green drinks all month. but i don't want to keep buying sweet apple cider and blending it with spinach. it costs too much.

I had a root canal done two weeks ago, now i need two crowns. lucky my dentist accepts payments of whatever, whenever lol. So the juicer and vitamix will have to wait a while. I also might start dumpster diving for my veggies again, we will see. But summer is coming so i can also look up all the public fruit trees.

My dog has been raw for 4 months now, and is doing great!. she is not vegan,she follows the raw meaty bones regime. I am reading the artist way now so i can start working on my art again and make that my career. I am sure good whole foods will help the process. I am also playing with the idea of writing a raw book. There will be a theme that has not been published in the raw world yet. I just need to do a lot of research and start making the recipes. wish me luck. Let me know how you are all doing eh?

toodles

dan the dancing raw juicer

2009-10-09T08:51:00.000-04:00

this is just too bloody funny

new beginnings, old endings

2009-09-13T20:35:00.003-04:00

Well i actually got off my butt today and did 30 minutes on the tread mill, burning
200 calories. I have become obsessed with calories lately, but i have to remember that if there is no fat, it is better than something with less calories and loads of fat.
I have gained back some more weight and i am starting to get depressed. My bingeing has been out of control and i have started to take the control back. My body is scared to get under 200 pounds. i was so close on;y 15 pounds away and my body took a majour tantrum and freaked out. now i am 40 pounds away and i have to do all that bloody work over again. i am pissed, disappointed, angry, sad, feeling hopeless, and determined to fight this all the bloody way!

binge ,binge,binge

2009-09-05T11:31:00.004-04:00

Ok, so rather than take you through all the crap i ate yesterday, which was a lot. i will tell you that i threw all the crap i ate this morning up. being raw with an eating disorder is just no fun. They fight each other all the time. I am starting another juice feast this morning. I don't know how long, i am not putting time limits on it, i am just going to do it. i am starting with a green drink that is raw, it is filled with all the nutrients i need and i mix it with apple juice. it is called Whole food smoothie infusion by Vega. a easy way to get all your greens in without the mess and time of preparing it yourself. this is the best i can do right now, i may do it myself later, but this is what i am doing now.

here is what is in it:

Formulated by Brendan Brazier, vegan, professional Ironman triathlete and bestselling author on performance nutrition, Vega Smoothie Infusion is power-packed with raw, organic superfoods. Check out these premium plant-based whole food ingredients:

Yellow pea protein, organic hemp protein, organic sprouted flax seeds, organic brown rice protein, organic green food blend (spirulina, organic wheat grass, organic alfalfa grass, organic barley grass, organic spinach, organic sprouted broccoli, organic kale, organic kelp, organic dulse), inulin (from chicory root), natural flavors, xanthan gum.

I should not call it a juice feast, but a liquid diet, because i will be combining fruit smoothies with my juices, and teas, as well as nut milks on occasion.

so that is where i am at now, how is everyone else doing?

binge knockout 2009

2009-08-16T14:02:00.000-04:00

July 24 update

2009-07-24T02:59:00.001-04:00

I am Back!!!

monday monday

2009-07-20T14:28:00.002-04:00

well, I was suppose to start my juice feats today, but instead i started on a grilled cheese sandwich, 2 hot dogs and a peanut butter sandwich and orange juice. thinking of wendy's this afternoon.

i have been sooo out of control the last month. just buying things off of e-bay, raising my visa limit,buying clothes. hating everything in my life. just crazy and whirlwind acting. I guess i could start tomorrow, i could start right now too. i just don't get what is going on. afraid to loose the rest of my weight? afraid to challenge myself 100 percent? i don't know. i really don't know why i am loosing my mind at th5s particular time. HELP

return to green

2009-06-22T19:15:00.003-04:00

yes yes yes, i am going on another juice feast. It is time to slow down and rethink my goals, and how my activity level will be changing this time. what has happened since i came off my 75 day one? CRAZINESS!!! things have been good, for the most part i have really gotten into fruit and water. i am sooo happy that is coming so natural to me now. but there are still the pizza bagaboos biting at my ass. it comes when my emotions are high. It comes when i feel i am going nowhere in life. It comes when i feel like i completely wasted my life and STILL am. Then it passes,and i feel, DUMMY, why did you eat that crap? you could have waited 10 minutes you IDIOT! then i think, oh well, i will walk it off. then it happens again. One thing i figured out is , i don;t eat on a regular basis, which leaves me open to this. I have to make sure i have a full stomach when people come over.I have to have quick grab foods available also. but mostly i need to STOP and THINK!

For the first time is many years i am enjoying summer Just today, it was hot as hell, people are sweating and cramped on the bus, and i did not have a big t-shirt on. i did not have jeans on rolled up. I had on a dress with a sleeveless t-shirt under it. It felt AMAZING. so that was the payoff, for all the work, i walked down the street today in a summer dress with sandles and my new cherry tattoo..:0

Life is sweet

Blood test results

2009-04-24T20:02:00.003-04:00

ok, went for a blood test to see if i was deficient in any thing, and i got my results today. my doctor was impressed with my iron levels, it was off the charts, protein perfect, and calcium amazing. now, if your calcium is good you have to check vit D for back up, because your body just takes calcium from your bones if you are deficient. and that is what is happening. my vit D is depleted. so i got D pills. no biggie, i will look for raw foods to fix this while i take my vitamins because my heath is more important than food preference. Also my B12 was low, so i got some of those also. i am going to up the nutritional yeast and bee pollen, but can't think of anything else accept Marmite with enough B12 to sustain normal levels. the other thing is my Potassium. it is too high. I felt, ohh well, that is good eh? NO, you can take a heart attack and die. so i don't know what causing this, bananas?

but overall i am sooooo happy with the results. and someone not raw learned something new about raw foods..:)

laters

March 18th 2009

2009-03-18T23:45:00.002-04:00

March 18th 2009

I broke my juice feast, and have been having issues staying raw, something is happening to me and I am not sure what. I am out of control and need to stop and just think for a while, I need a guide to follow every day, and a declaration to read to help me stay on track. I rode my bike around the block, that was nice, it is an 1945 ccm cruiser. pedal brakes and no gears. so you go as fast or slow as you pedal. work out time.
I really am having a hard time accepting that I stopped my juicing after all that time and discipline. I really am feeling like going back on until april 23rd. I got all my stuff out of my system I had pizza, nachos, bread, cheese. mayo. so, I think I will be jumping back in. after all I make my own rules, because it is my life. now the new feast will be v8 fusion and orange juice mixed with a green powder I bought from GNC health store.

If I feel a strong urge to eat and if there is a choice between ending the feast or eating a healthy salad, I will take the salad and continue with the juice the next day. I think the major problem with my hunger returning was not drinking enough juice. I was always a restricter. and that did not change when I was juicing. it has always been a problem, even when eating raw. I need a timer with a set of 4 alarms, so they go off automatically to remind me to eat or drink, I know it sounds crazy, but that is what I need. I guess my palm pilot could do that. so for now that is what I will use. I just drank a litre of water
I must have been neglecting my water needs.

update and weightloss

2009-03-13T20:04:00.002-04:00

I decided to stop my juice feast. my body was saying it was time. since i am learning to honor my body voice, i stopped my feats. i am having a hard time accepting this, but, it is what it is. I have lost an amazing 75 pounds to date, and have gained 3 since stopping my feast, but has remained at that three with one pound weight loss since eating.

Day 70

2009-03-08T00:15:00.003-05:00

March 7th 2009
Day 70

I have had a major screw up, it started while I was babysitting my nephews, I just cracked, I was like 20 minutes away from going back home, I spent the weekend at my sister’s house watching two boys. I made potato fritters and put them in the fridge, and I just tasted a little bit of it, which lead to a bite, which led to three fritters which lead to
Some nachos and cheese and peanut butter sandwich and purging it all. then I started chewing and spitting my food, so I would not have to purge and damage my throat.

Friday I went to my other sister’s house and had some chicken, then the next day I had chicken, salad, and fruit. I just feel out of control. if you go back 120 days in your life each day you fast. and the old emotions come out that you were experiencing at that time, I would be at my second last year of high school, at 120 pounds, broke up with someone I cared about, first boyfriend, had my first job, and was at my peak of having an eating disorder. so is it that all these things are pouring out of my body now? like they never left? or am I just a hopeless loose that always fails sh*t that I set out to do because I am afraid of success? I am picking back up tomorrow, I don’t care, I am not letting this sh*t stop me. but I am so angry at the fact that I was so bloody weak, like, it’s just food, damn, it is not oxygen. like wtf. I am so sick of dealing and struggling with food, like for real, I am so tired, I just have nothing left in me, I just can’t even sit here and cry about it, I can’t. I am empty, it is like, ohh well, I will drink my juices tomorrow, just pretend the weekend did not happen and that will be that. but my analytical side is saying, you stupid , complete, and total f*ck up, what the f*ck is wrong with your stupid *ss.
Must you trash everything, really? must you always fail, does it give you some sort of satisfaction to feel like a looser, does it?. I feel nothing while I write this, I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel hopeless, despite what my words say, I just feel like, purging really, and having an enema. but I am not going to purge. but I am doing the enema. and joining a gym next week. this just makes me feel, how am I going to handle food when I return to eating? I thought I would be in control. and just happy that I am eating salad and using my dehydrator again, but really, I had a choice this weekend to just eat salads, and what did I do? ate cheese, chicken, salad, rice, nachos, hotdogs, polenta, tofu, what the hell am I going to do? I wonder if my period has anything to do with this? and the full moon?
Anything but my own responsibility right? ahhh, I’m going to bed, this will all be a bad dream when I wake up.

PICTURE UPDATE

2009-02-22T17:11:00.001-05:00

BEFORE AND AFTER

Day 55

2009-02-21T00:35:00.001-05:00

Friday February 20th
Day 55

Soooo it has been a nutty time for me. between my dog being ill, and running low on cash, looking for a job and trying to remain on this journey has been hard, I fell back into old patterns which is when I am stressed I either eat everything or nothing, so since I am
Committed to this, I choose to drink nothing. some days consisted of 1 litre others one cup. I really see that as a success because If choosing between the two evils I choose nothing as apposed to everything. I found a free kambucha baby exchange on the net, and went to pick one up, I am waiting for it to grow now, it should be about two weeks before the tea is ready, then I will have something else to add to my regime.:)
If anyone lives in Toronto, please keep my e-mail in your box and around march, I am sure one will be ready to give away if you want to start your own. I managed to finally clean off my couch, and de-clutter some winter wear. Next, I am going to sort what more clothes I can give away since everything hangs off me. I think I will start looking for new fruits I have never had before, like star fruit or durian, and try veggies like spaghetti squash. I find there are fruits and veggies I love to eat, but juicing them does not always guarantee I will like it, cucumber is one I love cucumber, but drinking it was torture. Celery is another. So I guess I just have to experiments this is an interesting journey. I am also going t start incorporating more herbs, because I love flavor. I am still experiencing constipation and had another painful “session”. I think I will look into getting a colon cleansing in the next few weeks. it is way over do. and also look into enemas. they cost about $100 in Toronto, Canada. maybe if I go to the doctor I can get it for free with my complaints of woe is me hahahaha. gotta love my country..:)
My total weight loss to date is 72 pounds and I will start on the treadmill Monday, I have started walking my dog twice a day, very short distance for starters, but have kept to the schedule. I am noticing my cheek bones and color bones starting to show. I find myself feeling for bone at night when I go to bed, I recognize a pattern of some sort with this and will keep track of this so it does not get out of hand, or turn into other things. for those who have not followed my blogs, I am coming from an eating disordered background. and I have found loosing weight is bringing up old issues that were buried a while back. I am not scared of these things resurfacing because I know they need to leave my spirit and this is the best way for them to rise. however I could not return to the hospital program I once was in because they most certainly would want to encourage me to go off Raw labeling it an extremist diet and that I am just exchanging disorders etc
I do see this as a valid point, yet it is not correct for me. I have done my emotional work and I am fully aware of the reasons i am raw. I know several raw anorexics, and I think my support team would think I am heading in that direction. I understand why they would think that, yet I no longer have that strong hold or control that I once had on my restrictive behavior. I also have done much personal growth for the last two years after the program and recognize the danger areas and have no secret desire to return to them. Though I have experienced some symptoms of old patters when I sat and confronted myself, I dealt with them and they have not returned in that form. Though the nature of this disorder is to present symptoms in many forms until it is heard, I am too aware of all their forms and am confident I will recognize and address each one. I really can’t wait to start eating again, but I also analyze why I can’t wait. Eating fixed boredom for me, starving fixed avoiding fears for me. Purging fixed ridding me of guilt. Now I have to fill that time with things other than food and all it’s rituals and obsessions. So that is a great challenge. What have I been avoiding all these years that I can now do? Simple… all the things I have been afraid of…….life.

Day 43

2009-02-08T23:42:00.000-05:00

Sunday February 8th
Day 43

Ok, well it seems like my issues with constipation is still appearing, I did notice that if I drink a litre of just water when I feel the need to relieve myself, it is much easier, so I must not be getting enough plain water, or at regular intervals. I find I am getting obsessed with watching people eat cooked food on you tube, first it was just the foods I am addicted to like pizza and nachos and cheese, then it turned into watching eating competitions, then it was food stuffing and feeders. I have analyzed it and I can see several areas this cold hit. One I am not getting enough nutrition, therefore my body is craving food. second I can be experiencing old patterns of food obsession since I can’t act on it I watch others do it. third , I could be developing a new addiction brought out by a radical change in diet and lifestyle that was hidden? I don’t know. it is interesting to see how it is changing and how much longer I take to watch them and how precise I want them to be. Maybe I need to remove myself from the net and get something productive done. I am also researching raw food for my dog, and frustrated with the arguments I hear that are totally conflicting with one another concerning if dogs are carnivores or omnivores, can dogs be raw vegan, or vegetarian, or do they need meat to survive.

Please do not comments on this with your opinions on which you believe in, I have more than my share and I am well versed in all the different sides. I don’t want this journal entry to be about people telling me their opinions on what they think is best. I just want to share my current struggles and activities to date. I notice that I see a big difference in how my clothes hang and how my face looks , yet I am not excited to buy new clothes, though I was excited about giving a large majority of them away on freecycle. I find it pleasing to try on old clothes that were really tight before and now are loose. I like looking in the sear catalogue saying “FINALLY” this year I can order THIS, because I will fit in it. I would do this every year and say, I am going to buy myself this next summer, so that will give me incentive to loose weight. now it is like, I WILL be this size in the summer and I WILL be buying this. it feels so good. yet I am a bit numb not feeling the whole impact yet. I know this is how I react to new things, I am numb for months and it slowly seeps in slowly until I can cope with it all. I am scared also. I will be getting more than one category of men looking at me this summer, the ones who like average size woman, the ones who like both large and average size and the ones that don’t care either way. it will be so overwhelming, I think this is part of why I kept my weight on so long. the last time I lost a lot of weight, I just turned into a complete bitch. I think it was just to protect myself and keep attention away until I could absorb it. I don’t want that to happen again, I want to feel it, but be ready for it you know? I want to face the fear, understand it, feel it, and then move on to see what comes next, that way I know I won’t die and that I can handle it. Am I making sense? I don’t know. I feel like I am awakening from some slumber fog that has been burning my eyes for years. I feel like I am getting a glimpse of what other people experience on a daily basis but they don’t know it. it has always been there for them. I think if I don’t release this properly, it will all crash to the ground and I will be lost forever. I need help.

Day 31

2009-01-27T23:02:00.001-05:00

Tuesday January 27th 2009
Day 31

Ok, yesterday had to be the worst pain of my life. I had 6 suppositories, and it worked after that, very painfully though, and you will not believe this, I am 3.6 pounds lighter.
So I need to know what went wrong. Is it that I am not drinking enough water? I mean there are 4 cups of water in my juice with the spinach. Maybe cause I do not strain it?
But I never strain it and this did not happen all month. Was it the tahini or the banana?
All I know is I am keeping a 3 litre jug of water by my bed. I cannot go through that excruciating pain again. I have never begged or made deals with god like that since my dad passed away, I mean I thought I was going to rupture. no one said this would happen in all the juicing articles I read, no one said if you do not drink enough water while you have spinach you will become constipated and want to smash your head against a brick wall. I think that is important information. so if you are juice feasting out there with spinach. PLEASE DRINK ENOUGH PLAIN WATER IN BETWEEN. Damn, I am actually scared to go to the bathroom today, or drink anything except water . I almost quit yesterday. I was going to eat the nuts I am allergic to just to get things moving or throw up or something.. I was desperate. it is 8:43 am and I am scared to drink anything.
I guess it is just water and grape juice today. (time lapse) I added fruit juice to the mix to get some calories in, and I am going to get some apple cider, I love apple cider and I can drink that down very easy. I am also going to take the plunge with my dog and start her today on a raw diet, so I will start with a slice of raw meat. once this is handled, after a week, I will up the meat until it is at the dose she is suppose to be on, then start with the raw vegetables, probably spinach or broccoli. I got around to cleaning my geckos aquarium today, not one dead cricket was found, I suspect he eats the carcass when he finds them lol, gross! the middle of my body hurts. if I move fast, it shoots up a shot of pain, I don’t know what this is , but it worries me some cause it has not changed from the first time I noticed it weeks ago.

Day 30

2009-01-27T08:48:00.003-05:00

Monday January 26th 2009
Day 30

I have been constipated since saturday, maybe longer, I can’t remember. plus I think I took 2 msm pills by accident, well it can only do me good. I think I will drink some prune juice today to get the le bowels moving again, or lemon and water, I heard that is good too? (few hours after) Ok I had two packs of laxatives and nothing moved, I felt like throwing up though, it tasted gross, maybe it had something to do with the fact that the laxative is like 5 years old lol, but I had to do something, this is getting painful, plus when I weighted myself this morning, I gained like 3 1/3 pounds? that is impossible. how can you gain 3 pounds in one day? (few hours after) ok back now, I had some grape juice with dates in them, cause I read grape juice makes you regular, and date squares always made me move so ..why not try.. (few hours after) I just had a table spoon of olive oil, and a table spoon of apple cider vinegar. god that was soooo bad, it felt like fire going down my throat. I drank 2 cups of water and another cup of grape juice.. this really hurts (few hours after) ok I just looked up constipation on the net, and it said you should go to the doctor if you have been constipated for 3 days or more, because the longer your bowels sit in your intestines, the more liquid your intestines will keep sucking out of it, so it will become very hard and unmoveable, this will lead to impaction. then they will have to get the old bum torches out at the hospital (few hours after) I can’t take this, I went to the store and bought some suppositories, I hope this works..2 hours later, they did not work.. I am taking more..1 hour later. did not work. I am going to the hospital.
I feel like I am going to faint and throw up at the same time.

Day 26

2009-01-22T23:56:00.001-05:00

Thursday January 22nd 2009
Day 26

Did not have much today, some orange juice, one cup, it is 8:16 pm, and I have not craved anything really. I have to have something more though. pineapple juice maybe.
10pm:Ok I have a green juice and pine apple juice with bee pollen. yes I added bee pollen to my diet, but it is not sweet like some said it is??? it tastes like …saw dust really..lol .I also added lettuce to my green juice today, it made a pleasant change to the spinach. Tasted light and fresh. I find my stomach cannot handle a lot at one time. obviously it is shrinking, so I just need to sip through out the day. I keep watching these videos on you tube of people eating pizza lol, it helps, but I hope it does not set me up t binge the first week of eating again in April. are soaked prunes the only thing you can break a feast with? I mean I like prunes, but I do good with choices you know, I don’t want to do it because that is what one person did, and everyone just follows them you know? I am sure all these questions will be answered once I pick up the juice feasting books and info I have lol, damn I am sooooo lazy, well I am not really lazy, I just do so much multitasking in one day, some things get dropped off

Day 22

2009-01-18T23:20:00.001-05:00

Sunday January 18th 2009
Day 22

Today was a lazy day, I made a new juice combo, with apple, spinach and tomato. could not take it, I drank about half a litre and dumped the rest, my mother is drinking them along with me now. I am going to buy some mandarins tomorrow and a bag of apples and pineapple. my juicer gave up and will no longer do carrots, yes I have the ghetto juicer , not the fancy $1000 ones lol…oh I need celery also, ohh I know, I will try cucumber this week also, pineapple is the best for covering nasty flavors’ hahaha
I find the juicing is not as big an event as it use to be with me, like, get out of the kitchen, I need to chop stuff and put everything in perfect proportion.. it is now, slam the juicer on the counter, grab some stuff , do it, drink it.. now what lol.

Such is life..:)..ohh and I took bee pollen today and will be taking it every day from now on.

Day 21

2009-01-18T23:15:00.002-05:00

Saturday January 17th 2009
Day 21

I have been craving pizza for the last couple of days, and I decided to just let the feelings come, and smell it when it is in the house. if I can use my imagination, I can pretend I am actually eating it, then that would satisfy the craving. so I searched on the net for someone eating pizza, you tube, wouldn’t you know it, had a lot of people, I watched this wanna be body builder eat this personal size pizza on his stomach hahahahaha, then this smaller Asian guy eat a whole large size domino's pizza, without stopping in 6 minutes, now that was impressive, so watching them helps on some level. I am babysitting today
For 4 hours, so I will bring some apple cider with me, that is the easiest to do. and drink my greens before I go. my back and middle of my body is starting to hurt, but I think it is because I sit on my bed slumped up on pillows while I write theses journal and approve messages on the sites. yoga will help, I have to start it.
Ok back from babysitting, my energy was great, I ran, I chased, I laughed, it was cool, I noticed I felt frustrated but did not react to it. but it is something I noticed.I drank all the juice I brought, and I think I am going for the next week do mono juicing, and get a pill form of greens or powdered form, I need a break.

Day 16

2009-01-13T00:14:00.001-05:00

Monday January 12 2009
Day 16

I woke up this morning and took a shower right away, let the dog out and made my green juice. After that I answered my e-mails, read some more on juice feasting, and then took my niece out for a walk around the neighborhood. I have been in a low mood the last couple of days. I assume it is my body adjusting, but I am sure my surroundings do not help. Living with dysfunction does not create positive vibes. So I made up a schedule to follow for my juicing, so far I have had 3 liters’ of green juice and my MSM and my hemp oil. the last litre will be orange juice, then I will have a tea before bedtime which will be 11pm.

So I am on track. I have to make an exercise schedule also, so I can start moving again.
I a going to get a meditation tape as well as a couple of yoga tapes so I can do those in the morning or at night as well. ohh and I want to practice poi also. Money always seems to be my barrier, even when there are free yoga classes, I gave to get there, and everything is far from me. hence the tapes..lol. next I have to work on going to bed at a decent time as apposed to 3 or 4 am.

Day 13

2009-01-10T18:57:00.002-05:00

friday, January 10, 2009
Day 13

I think I drank 2 cups of black cherry and apple cider yesterday. I am slowly starving myself. I need to snap out of this. But your know, I am confused, people go on fasts all the time, why can I not do what my body feels? When I am thirsty I will drink, when I am not I won’t. I don’t know how I will do that without my body not trusting me and screwing up my metabolic system again. (3 hours after)Ok I just downed a litre of nut milk so I am sure my body thanks me for that, I need to make up for lost nutrition..:) I am going to make something green now. I m afraid I am going to have all this hanging skin in april, I mean people told me about skin brushing, and exercise, and MSM, but are they really gonna take away the extra skin? I can’t afford surgery, why is there always bad with good? You try and eat healthy, then you can’t show off your new body because you look like elephant skin..:(

Day 11

2009-01-07T19:47:00.001-05:00

Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Day 11

Well it is noon now, an I am still on the net hahaha fixing my new site Raw In Toronto. I fed my dog, let her outside yet have not had anything to drink yet.
I am definitely NOT a morning person..:) I feel ok today, not pissy. Yet so I think I will make a green smoothie right now.
---well I didn’t end up making a green smoothie, I made a broth, and had a couple of sips of it, then went out, I just got back home now at 7pm. NOT GOOD lol
I will live. I have gone days without food in the past so I won’t die. I do worry about my body memories though. I know my body will go in starvation mode and hold onto every bit of fat it can. Because it doesn’t trust me. so I have to be more regular than I currently am. I went to the health food store I went to years ago, and they changed, it is a cop out store now, herbs, whey powder, vitamin ect, at least they have raw nuts, and juices I can use, but that is about it. the rest is just generic stuff I can get at any
New age health stores. they use to sell organic foods on one side, all organic with signed papers and lots of natural soaps, books info, drinks, and a very knowledgeable vegan staff. now it is “what ever”. anyway I bought some black cherry there. ingredients;
“black cherry” lol, I found myself looking at the calories in it, which is stupid cause I had nothing that day so why would it matter? thinks like that are happening, not a lot, but once in a while. with my weight, I find I am getting a bit obsessed. I am suppose to weight myself once a week, but I do it every morning, naked, with no hair band in my hair, no jewelry, and dry hair, not wet, dry. ..i know, I know…believe me , I know…

Tuesday, January 06, 2009 Day 10

2009-01-06T18:10:00.003-05:00

I started the day with ginger tea. I am feeling completely over whelmed, everything bothers me, and all I want to do is stay in my bedroom. Every one pisses me off, noise pisses me off. ok i'm officially in a pissy mood. I feel no hunger really; I don’t even feel the need to compensate with drinking. let me give you a tip when you are reading these diaries of mine, I leave word open all day, and come back and forth and add snippets of the day, so , right now I am sipping on clear soup broth, Indian spices, YUM! Almost like eating… yes I love to tease myself, better than nothing right? ok when I am back onto eating, my goal is to get my food to taste like authentic South Asian food. then my life will be complete..lol.
I just sat down with a green juice made of spinach, pineapple, banana and apple cider.
I only had two drinks today that were in a regular cup, I am reaching an all time low. I need to snap out of this. I am just not hungry or thirsty. maybe this will pass? anybody? As I sign off, I notice I am seeing more bone in my hand. I grew up with boney hands and boney feet, and I am seeing that it is starting to emerge again. just an observation.

Good day.

day 9 of 124 day juice feast

2009-01-05T19:20:00.002-05:00

Day 9 January 5th 2009

today was a slow day I had half a gallon of fresh made orange juice, and some ginger tea.
next I will have some spinach juice and then a clear soup broth.

the juice was good. Clementine’s are great.

I seem to be on the computer all day, answering blog questions or e-mail or what ever. my life is going by in my room. I do nothing but avoid all the hectic discombobulated noise out in the kitchen and front room. I need to win the lottery so I can just leave.

I don’t know what I want to do in life anymore, nothing seems to inspire me anymore, just raw food and getting healthy, but that won’t pay my $40K student loan.
I was thinking of doing something with raw food, like working at a raw food place, I only have three to choose from, but then again, I did not go to uni and college to be a server.
but It would be only for a short while. Now do not get what I just said confused with something being WRONG with being a server. I did not go to uni or college to be
real estate agent, switch board operator, nanny, personal support worker either, and I am not going for those jobs either. Otherwise, why did I go to school?

I just feel Bla, and my moods go up and down. one day I feel like I can do anything, the next everything is sh*t. today is the sh*t day. but other than that life is good.

day 7 of juice feast

2009-01-05T01:44:00.004-05:00

Day 7 juice feasting
January 3rd 2009

Ok this is my 7th day diary entry, I am a day late. Things are getting a bit mechanical, I find my stomach does not crave food anymore, but my mind does. I want to join in when I am at a party, but I have no desire in my stomach to eat, it is all in my nose and eyes and head lol. I was at my nieces birthday party today, and birthday cake id definitely one of my top weaknesses, hence the reason I have birthday cake in the trigger category picture lol.

I wake up not hungry or thirsty, I just am. I seem to drink something around 10 or 11 am.
I had spinach, apple and pineapple juice all yesterday and this afternoon; I swear it was like giving birth in the loo. I don’t know what it was, maybe I need more water?
I never want to feel that again. I had all apple cider today and things are a bit loose..
so I don’t know what new things to drink anymore. My total weight loss for 8 days is 9 pounds. I am still loving my ginger tea. and seriously wanting to get out of this hot mess of a house. we will see.

talk to you all next Sunday.

Day 6 of juice feast January 2, 2009

2009-01-02T17:25:00.000-05:00

Day 6 of juice feast
January 2, 2009

Ok, so how you all doing this fine day of 2009? How are your goals going? Are you accomplishing what you intended? One thing I am seeing very clearly about myself is that I am a nurturer, which is not a bad thing, but “HOW” you nurture is what is important. Coming from an eating disorder back ground, I naturally nurture with food, so I always make too much everything, it affects all of my thinking. I never have enough. My dog has loose bowels. Why? Because I think she is not getting ENOUGH food. so I give her more. My dog throws up, why? She throws up because I gave her MORE than ENOUGH food 

I have to learn to express my feelings and emotions in a non-eating disordered way. Or just in a healthy way, probably in ways that are less comfortable for me. Life is challenging isn’t it? And I welcome the challenge. Do you know about The Johari Window? There is an unknown area that we can’t see. Well we all have unknown areas in our lives behaviors and mannerisms “WE” can’t see and others can’t see. Here is how it goes

1) There are things you know about yourself that other don’t, this is your hidden area. past histories, what you are fearful of, who hurt you in the past, secrets, you know.

2) There are things OTHERS know about you, but YOU do not; this is your blind spot. like when someone says ”you’re bossy” and you say.. Piss off I am not, or someone makes you aware of your behavior, and you did not know you were like that.

3) There are things that you and other know about you. This is your public area. This is the stuff your friends bug you about, or that are obvious like you cry easily at movies, you are tall, your name, you are afraid of dogs, your job etc.

4) Last, there are things others as well as yourself do not know about you…this is your hidden window, your hidden self. . This is what we need to discover about ourselves, these are the NEW things we learn about ourselves; like, “I never knew I could ever accomplish this”; and others are amazed and say the same thing. The things you have never done and other don’t expect you to do. When you surprise yourself as well as others, you are making that blind spot smaller and smaller. That is my goal in life.

The more I know about myself, the more self aware I am. This creates more options in my life which in turn creates an abundance of opportunity for me. This is when you discover your true calling. But I will never get there if I am not aware of my fears which stop me from seeking diversity, challenge and even pain. Because when you open yourself up to newness, you do seek pain, you welcome it because there is always a letting go of old things. That is painful. Good pain. It is growth. You cannot have growth without pain. You can replace the word pain with, change or challenge or obstacles, whatever word you choose, it all boils down to FEAR. As soon as you do not fear, FEAR. You are more than half way there. Hope to see you along the way.

peace out

Fifth day juice feasting January 1, 2009

2009-01-01T16:53:00.000-05:00

Fifth day juice feasting

January 1, 2009

The day is going well, I woke up at around 10 am this morning, I had a small glass of cheap wine yesterday and admittedly had a small chocolate, no biggie, if I had put it in my juice, it would have been a chocolate smoothie..:) Minor technical imperfections; lol

I have really lessoned the amount I am drinking. My body does not seem to require a gallon of juice, I drink all day long, yet if I do it stringent, I notice stress. If I do it casually, I notice it is less juice and a more peaceful atmosphere and a relaxed mind.
I have no more headaches, I seem to be very active on the net a lot, updating my many sites, and that is good. I worry I won’t have time for them later, but that is not honoring the present. So that thought is disintegrated. I have been drinking ginger tea most of the day. I bought a ginger root, I slice about three slivers, and pour hot water over it. add honey to taste. it is tastier than I thought it would be. My visit to Live food bar was great, I bought some teas there and had two smoothies. The tiger milk(not really tiger milk)
and The Ashtanga. The tiger was amazing, the other requires a little getting use to, it had kale in it..:).

I still am running to the loo every 30 minutes or so, but that is good I suppose, I will be buying a lot of toiletries till april..:)

peace

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2008-12-31T23:15:00.002-05:00

here is a new years poem for everyone:

New Year’s Reality Check

Another year, another chance
To start our lives anew;
This time we’ll leap old barriers
To have a real breakthrough.

We’ll take one little step
And then we’ll take one more,
Our unlimited potential
We’ll totally explore.

We’ll show off all our talents
Everyone will be inspired;
(Hmm…while I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired.)

We’ll give up all bad habits;
We’ll read and learn a lot,
All our goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not.

Oh well, Happy New Year anyway!

By Joanna Fuchs

Fourth day juice feasting December 31, 2008

2008-12-31T10:47:00.000-05:00

Fourth day juice feasting
December 31, 2008

well I managed to get to bed by 1am instead of 3am, and I woke up at 6:30am, nice.
I got my dog fed and answered a lot of e-mails and feel a bit like I could go back to bed, but I am not. I am going to LIVE FOOD BAR today with my friends faith and Fatima, that will be a blast, I will have a juice and a smoothie, maybe the pina colada and the jungle jive. it is really cold today so I want to see if I feel any different today, like do I feels extra cold or warmer than normal. I also want to see how I handle myself at a restaurant with raw foods and can’t eat any of it. I wanted to go to live the day before my fast so I could taste their stuff, but my friend cancelled on me and I was too lazy to go myself. I have no more headaches, everything seems rather clear and light, I lost another pound, I wasn’t suppose to weight myself again until Sunday..oppsie!

I have to search the net for yoga videos and work out videos for my arms, they are starting to sag. that is a fear of mine also that I am going to loose all this weight, and end up with a body full of hanging skin, then I can’t afford surgery so it is another hell to live in. the most I can do is exercise now and use firming lotion I guess. I wonder if the body brush helps with flab? you know something crazy? my dog love tofu.. hahahaha

later

Third day juice feasting December 30, 2008

2008-12-30T15:56:00.001-05:00

Third day juice feasting

December 30, 2008

well things started off great this morning, I was awake and ready to go, I took a shower, even washed my hair hahaha, and fed my dog on time before she threw up a bunch of bile.. I feel energetic and ready to move; yesterday I cleaned off my couch, which was piled so high you could not see the color. my friend called me and I actually picked up the phone ..WOW!.i am going to live tomorrow with two of my friends, I am working on a slow conversion plan..:)))) I will make them raw and they won’t even now it bwhahahah

so far no headaches, and I had only 32 ounces to drink today, so I have to step it up, but maybe I will just go by how I feel and what my body requires instead of trying to live by another persons juicing experiences. I went on the scale this morning and lost 3 pounds so far. I will go on each Sunday I think, when I bathe the dog hahahaha. and do the laundry. I think I will grow my hair out again. I wanted it to be shoulder/neck length, but I think I want it long again.. I do this all the time, and then I get fed up, get dreads, then shave my hair, that is the un-medicated routine. Lets see how this plays out

laters

juice feast day 2 Monday December 29, 2008

2008-12-29T13:32:00.003-05:00

I am tired, I know it is detox because I went thru this in July, I guess I have a week of this, it was three weeks in July. my headache is gone, but I feel a tightness in the front of my head. my tongue is not sticky, but I feel a cold coming on. I think I will stick to herbal tea today and lemon aid. do you know what just dawned on me? I started eating raw in july, which is the 7th month. the closest time I remember was 6:30, that is when I made my first video, so I must have eaten around 7pm, and it was 2007. 777, crazy eh? but it was not on the 7th day it was the 20th. 20-7-7-7

so when did I start my juice feast. December, so the 12th month, twelve is my favorite number. it was again on a Sunday, the 28th and in the morning, I got up at 10, but juiced at around 11am, so 28-12-11-08

day, time, month, year,

looking like lottery numbers to me hahahahahaha

ok the tightness in my head is gone, and I am ready for some tea. I did not end up going to live food bar because my friend cancelled on me, but I should just go one day myself.
I felt like quitting the first day because I had to feed my dog, and I cook his food myself, then I was watching my nieces, I gave them lunch and they wanted Christmas treats. I noticed I just wanted to take a bite , I just wanted to do it and my stomach was full, it is more about feeling like I am “missing out” than hunger. That is a big issue with me, feeling left out. I do know where that comes from, so I see I have to do more reflection on this and see some things as “not for me as apposed to” I didn’t get it”.
I also found a juicing bible book I bought last year, I forgot I even had it, so SWEET!

later chicks and chickudes.

8 pm: update…I have a headache

I have had enough!!

2008-12-27T00:45:00.004-05:00

ok, Christmas is over, and so are my wondering, smashing into the walls eating out of control ways.
i have decided to get back into control with a juice feast. i will start on Sunday. and finish on my birthday April 23rd 2009. That is it, i made up my mind, that is what i need. I will be going to Live organic food bar tomorrow with my friend to taste their raw menu, and then Sunday morning, i will start my new journey. i will be taking MSM and getting a body brush and doing cardio so the flab does not feel invited to "hang" around get it hahahahahaha..uhmm ok

anyone who would like to join me, please feel free to drop me a line, post a comment or watch my video on you tube and comment there in text or video.

peace out!

PUS-GETTI

2008-12-14T00:41:00.006-05:00

ok, so i made this on the fly, so here is a hard copy of the mish mash i did.

first , make your pus-getti, put it aside.

get your favorite nut and put it in the ghetto blender you own, cause i know you ain't got no vita-nothin lol

then add

tomato paste/ or raw version of
oregano
chopped onions, i think will use sweet onions next time
green peppers
garlic
pepper/ sea salt
extra virgin olive oil

then re-blend...then top with nutritional yeast, tastes like cheese. kinda

tell me how you like it, and write me if you improve on this recipe, i will be sure to ignore you lol

just kidding

later

RESULTS...drum roll please......

2008-09-03T18:48:00.001-04:00

da da da daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

SHITE!

burger nightmares

2008-09-02T02:20:00.003-04:00

ok, here is my 4th burger recipe. you will find out tommorrow if they tatsed like shite or not lol

but they look good eh?

Banana ice cream

2008-08-30T16:54:00.003-04:00

The ice cream looks a bit runny because i took a picture a couple of minutes after i was eating it hahahaha, it is sooooo good.

i put 2 frozen bananas in the blender with vanilla flavouring and a bit of soy milk.

you can add walnuts if you choose, then you can have walnut ice cream..i think i will do that next.
how do you stop it from melting so fast though?

fried mushrooms

2008-08-30T16:42:00.005-04:00

I got this recipe from Karen Knowler blog or site. they are very nice. The top picture is what they look like before putting them in the dehydrator. I put lemon, spices, parsley and olive oil
on them, and let them marinate for about an hour.

And this is them the next day after dehydration. They are good, and tatsy, i never thought they would taste good but they do, i put them on my hamburger. and they ere very tatsy. see below

I think i need a sauce though, i used ketchup but want a raw sauce for burgers, any suggestions?

lumps and bumps

2008-08-29T01:05:00.003-04:00

it seems like lately, i have been getting some red sores on my body, not a lot maybe 3 or 4 that i noticed raised and tender, but not broken or pussy. and so i did some reading on detox. and it was very interesting what i found. a lot of people say that eating high raw flushes the toxins out of your system so fats, that your system cannot handle it, and so it comes out through your skin, i think this is what is happening to me. The solution was. get a colon cleansing.

has anyone out there had a colon cleansing? how did you feel after? and for those in toronto,ontario. where do we get that done, and what is the cost?

Hamburgers

2008-08-27T18:43:00.007-04:00

well i guess i shouldn't be calling them "HAM" burgers eh? lol, we are so meat oreinted in this world...Right-o, so you know i had to eventually make a burger, and believe me, this was not perfect, i think i need wayyyyy more practice before i find the flavor i want. maybe i will make them out of cashews next time and not sunflower seeds??? any suggestions?

so, i used

grounded sunflower seeds
celery
broccoli
spices
chopped up tomatoes

i think i will use red bell peppers next time, leave out the celery and since i like the taste a dash of tobasco sauce and onions. then we will see what the taste is like.

how do you make yours? comment below..laters...

tomatos

2008-08-27T18:30:00.006-04:00

oki doki, well i FINALLY made this tomatoes someone was telling me about. i think i need different spices, there is something on it that tastes nasty!, other than that, it is cool.

i sliced the tomatoes really thick, and dehydrated over night, with garlic powder and spices.

I ate them with cole slaw and a drop of homemade jam.:)

ta ta

crackers

2008-08-27T18:02:00.009-04:00

Ok , i just made a nice cracker. if you are looking for exact ingredients, look away lol, cause i
ain' t into that, basically what i used was

chick peas
powdered sunflower seeds, till the glop was more dough looking
whole sunflower seeds
sea salt
pepper
onions
tomato
spices of choice

mix together in blender and dehydrate over night. 12 hours is how long i did it for.

here is a close up shot:

you can even try it with homemade jam...YUMMY!!!!

or with your newly made tomatoes..:)

BIRTHDAY TRIGGERS

2008-08-14T11:04:00.003-04:00

Anyone who knows me knows, my FAVORITE thing in the world is birthday cake..and it was my nieces 3rd birthday yesterday..and they had PIZZA, and caramel apples and popcorn and cotton candy

and do you know what i ate?

NOTHING!!!!!!!! YIPPIE!!!!!!, i could not believe that i did not crave this stuff, it was like, i saw it and thought, i wonder if i should have a piece, then said ..naw....i could tomorrow if i want...and left it at that, well this is tomorrow and i have not had or wanted any of t. i am soooo amazed, my though patterns are different doing raw this time around, last year it was torture. i wanted EVERYTHING i saw, everything i could smell cooking. it is like i have a different brain now.. i am soooo happy, this means i can handle Christmas too, at least i can have cranberries lol

peace

couscous

2008-08-05T00:50:00.001-04:00

today is my two week mark eating 100% raw. i had some cooked couscous today and decided i will incorporate some cooked foods in my diet, like soups and add raw spinach when the soup is at 110. i cannot have any of those nut milks, i am allergic to 3 different kinds of nuts, so i would just be asking for trouble. i am afraid my throat might blow up or something drinking so much nuts. this has never happened to me before, my symptoms with nuts are itchy throat and sinus area or bleeding from my bowels. marzapan caused the itchy face ,throat nd sinus area. all the rest cause bleeding, and think hazel nut makes me throw up emmediately.

feeling Bingey

2008-08-05T00:47:00.002-04:00

This happened tuesday july 29th:

i really felt like binging yesterday, my family bought Chinese food, one of my triggers, and i was contemplating eating it when they went to bed, then purging it, or chewing and spitting, it was scary, i just thought, if that food could be out of the house i will be ok..then it dawned on me that "I" could leave the house, so i did, i went for a long walk to get the smell out of my nose and the visuals out of my brain, then i journaled when i got back home. i asked my family to put all the extras away and not leave it on the stove for 4 hours after they are done dinner and it passed.

buckwheat

2008-07-28T12:38:00.003-04:00

i tried soaked buckwheat for breakfast today, and i did not like the texture, the taste was ok, if it was bulkier i think i would have been able to work with it. anyway, i saw the calories for it was 547 and with the banana and brown sugar i added it went up to 766 for breakfast. it set off all kinds of emotions, and i was having old thought patterns again of purging it. i was also thinking yesterday of purging or chewing and spiting. i think this is all coming up again because i am now loosing weight, and i am trying to control it by competeing with myself. i want to loose more and more each day, if i loose a half pound today i want to loose 1 pound tommorrow, then 2 the next day, i feel this coming back and it scares me.

CHEATER!!!!!

2008-07-23T17:49:00.003-04:00

omg i suck, did i not just cheat, my brother in law is from bangladesh, and he makes this dish called fooshka, it is soooooooo good..but anyway, i did not eat the shell, ok i had one shell, but the rest i put on lettuce, it was tomato,onions,cilantro,and chick peas from A CAN!!!!!!.so there you have it, i cheated..pretty good for 4 days though..i hope i don't start craving food now...:(

ohhh my body

2008-07-23T01:30:00.002-04:00

well today went ok, i started my work out routine, it was hard a times, but i can handle it.
i am going to tryand make some soups tommorrow with tomatoes and greens and spinach and spices,, i think spices are the key to me sticking to this thing, i like TASTE and veggies just have no appealing taste for me at all!!!!...